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all the chance that i need :: laura siodmak (photosynth) wrote,
@ 2009-06-27 18:01:00

018.
I don't know which is more ridiculous, the idea that only perfect moral examples deserve birthday parties or the idea that having killed someone is somehow unusual here.

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	Laura march_hare_ 2009-06-27 05:30 pm UTC (link)
	You know, it's one of those days where I have to stop and wonder about all of us because of what is and isn't ridiculous around here that would pretty much blow other people's minds. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Matt photosynth 2009-06-27 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	I don't even stop to wonder anymore, it doesn't get me anywhere. At least, I try not to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Laura march_hare_ 2009-06-30 02:50 pm UTC (link)
	I try too, but I still can't help it some of the time. Some days it really makes me want to find a good school to transfer to so I can get as far away from here as possible and not have to wait until graduation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Matt photosynth 2009-06-30 08:57 pm UTC (link)
	The funny thing is, I don't feel at home anywhere else anymore. I mean, I thought going away to college would make me feel safer or something, but I just end up worrying that something will happen to someone I care about while I'm gone. I don't know if I could go all that far away for very long now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Laura

march_hare_
2009-06-30 10:04 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, I know what you mean. Virginia hasn't felt like home to me in a while. I'm hoping somewhere besides here will, but I'll never know until I see, right? It's not like I won't eventually. NYU has a pretty good grad program for engineering but there are a lot of better ones. And I worry about some people here but it's not like I can actually do anything about that when I am here.

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Matt

photosynth
2009-07-01 06:24 am UTC (link)

You're right about how this place changes us after a while. I try not to spend too much time worrying about it, it isn't like there's anything I can do, but I notice it when I'm away at school. I never feel like I'm quite on the same page as anybody else at Sarah Lawrence, even though I like a lot of them. It's like our experiences have been so different that we just can't connect or something, no matter how hard we try. I really don't know what that means in terms of the future.

Sorry, now I'm the one who's rambling.

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Laura

march_hare_
2009-07-01 03:45 pm UTC (link)

Hey, I did it first, so don't worry about it. Half the time I kind of wish there were more people here who went to NYU just so when I was on campus I'd know someone who completely gets it, I guess. The people in both my departments are great, but it's like you said there's always this little bit that's out of place, maybe? Then the other half of the time it's the same thing for me when I'm here.

I have this feeling that I'd have to completely forget about everything at Xavier's or put it behind me to really settle in anywhere else. But I don't know how well I'd be able to do that, ever. The stuff that's happened here- it's not really like we can just forget about it or put it on a shelf or something like that. But we wouldn't be the same people without it, so....I don't know. Ok, that thought train kind of crashed without ending anywhere useful.

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	Laura march_hare_ 2009-06-30 02:51 pm UTC (link)
	Sorry, no idea where that came from. I uh, I think I started rambling and my fingers got away from me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Matt photosynth 2009-06-30 08:58 pm UTC (link)
	Please, don't apologize. I think everyone who's been here longer than a year has felt that way at some point. We talk about the black hole effect a lot, but a lot of students leave here before they graduate and never come back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Laura march_hare_ 2009-06-30 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, I guess it is something you have to deal with on both ends. On one hand, we've made it this far, and on the other, it makes finally leaving here that much harder when the time comes. If it ever does. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	giovane 2009-06-27 05:41 pm UTC (link)
	I do not care if I deserve it because I am still getting it. And you are coming, yes? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	photosynth 2009-06-27 07:42 pm UTC (link)
	Very good point. I wouldn't miss it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	fullphase 2009-06-28 01:18 am UTC (link)
	I stole my friend's boyfriend in 1st grade. I don't deserve a birthday party either. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	photosynth 2009-06-30 12:54 am UTC (link)
	I'll remember that when it gets to be December. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	fullphase 2009-06-30 01:09 am UTC (link)
	Whatever, girlscout. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	nowhearthis 2009-06-30 08:21 pm UTC (link)
	so wait......does that mean a lot of people here ARE murderers or whatever or are you like, really exaggerating? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	photosynth 2009-06-30 08:51 pm UTC (link)
	It means a lot of people here have been put in situations where they've had to kill or be killed, and anyone who blames them for surviving that can go to hell. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nowhearthis 2009-06-30 09:57 pm UTC (link)
	oh. ~~wtf that so means yes~~ so like, are you talking about the stuff that happened with the cure, cause i know stuff happened with us them? i mean, are there people i should be avoiding or something like that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	photosynth 2009-07-01 07:01 am UTC (link)
	~~Oh god, I don't even know where to start~~ I'm not just talking about the Cure, but yeah, that's the kind of thing I mean. A lot of bad things have happened to some of us the people here, and some of it's hard to explain to people who didn't go through it. And no, there's nobody you should avoid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	nowhearthis 2009-07-01 03:47 pm UTC (link)
	right. ok. ~~brb, freaking tf out~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)